damn sick.

sometimes I feel as if the universe had abandoned me, although it's supposedly a nest, and it takes care of all its birds.

I don't want to complain, but I can't help doing so because it's desperate. may be I'm an industrialized human being well-fed with blessings - which makes it hard to survive on a much less blessing-decifit diet.

I'm sick of so many things - the pandemic that brought families together, but only worsen the status quo of our family. I needed alone time, breathes became shorter, forced and miserable.

I failed in accepting life as how it is.

I failed in embracing flaws.

wabi sabi is shit, basically broken vase filled with 24K cum gold.

it's not art, it's all broken.

fuck off, leave me alone.

/sigh/

5/7/2021.