to be honest, it'd never come to my mind that I'd type this post out today instead of the last day of 2020.
since for now I'm fully aware of what's going on in my life (generally said, not everything), I think I have the wisdom to sit and recall whatever happened chronologically.
um I'll just view this as a list of lessons that 2020 has to offer.
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2020 was not a great year for humanity, but it was, in some ways, for me.
it was a pain to overcome too. everything happened way too quickly.
hustling isn't always the key.
it is the key most of the time, but it doesn't have to be the only solution.
just because one way is harder than another, it doesn't mean that it is worth walking and the other track isn't worth considering.
I got to make the choice at the start of the year, it was a pain in the ass for a long time, but I soberly sorted things out.
then I repeated mistakes I'd been making for millenia.
making the right decision.
as I gather loads of information, I forgot to ask myself a question whether my option is tied to anyone or not.
it doesn't matter if you choose it for yourself or for the sake of anyone else, the important thing is to understand the gains and risks that come with it, and what you can do to alleviate the current situation.
I didn't realize the main factor while making the right decision, but missing it out caused my plans to collapse.
once you'd made the decision but wanted to switch sides, remember why you chose something at first.
self-care, self-love, self-development, et cetera.
I'll stop calling it self-love cause I think it has something wrong to do with the wording.
as I chant for loving yourself but not being able to care about me is enough of bullshit, I'll just dump all and call it self-care.
it varies from people to people, to see what fits best for you just try, really.
remember that self-development is a very personal process.
what is the meaning of life?
I'd had enough of pondering that question for this year, I'll stop having so much existential crises in 2021.
the answer?
is to find the meaning of life. it varies.
how?
try new things, redo old things, keep doing the something.
nothing good happens after 12pm.
originally, the quote from how I met your mother was "nothing good happens after 2am"
since after 12pm was enough of a hardcore for me, its consequence doesn't come right after the minute (after 12pm is still amazing), but its effect can still be seen at the end of the day, and the start of the next day.
as appealing as it is, I'll have to say no to offers more often.
any start is a start.
there's no such thing as a perfect start, a flawless kick off for the day, or any task.
a start is a start. a good start is a simple one.
imagine how many time I'd have saved realizing this simple fact.
time is very valuable.
everyone knows that, but not every one acknowledge the value of time and stop wasting them. I'm no other.
there're two things that's hard to do
to start. and to keep going.
health is very valuable.
so please
don't sit for too long.
take breaks, keep going is counter-productive.
take.care.of.yourself.
family is very valuable.
they'll stay when everything falls down.
cherish them before they're all gone.
show, don't tell.
this is the ultimate slogan for writing application essays to college. I think it works well with life.
for much part of my life spent persuading people that I'll be able to do something, I'll just practice it now and keep my mouth shut.
mood comes and goes.
so, embrace it as it comes, and let go as it leaves.
that's how you learn to surf the waves of life.
there is no need to plan too far.
well there is, but make sure your plan have room for change. flexibility is important and many people oversee it.
it applies to myself that whatever I plan to do will collapse. so I just go with the wave.
a happy life is a simple life.
it's simple to be happy but difficult to be simple - tagore
I think I know where my problems stem from.
we don't balance by stacking more things on our shoulders, but to let go of them.
23/12/2020.
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