the way I viewed mistakes changed.
today is my 100th day anniversary, and also the first day I got up late, which results in going to the schoolbus thingy late.
and it doesn't stop there.
it causes a multiplier effect. in which previously everything synchronized nicely then I'm there to ruin this.
turns out I wasn't an asshole as all, I feel bad wasting people's time.
but... not mine?
well, that's for what I'd made, and now's for what I'd learnt, or learnt but forgot
timing is everything, 2020
the extent to which I learnt this was that time exists and it's important. I don't really give a fuck about the rest after reading that thicky 200 pages Time book.
I can't promise to change into another person in just one day but I can probably evolve 1% a day, I guess...
attitude is everything, 2020
well good news is that I no longer blame myself for fucking things up every once in a while. and it props learning to a new level.
the conversation went like
me hey we got on the bus late
brain yeah, we're late
me then what, why don't you beat me up like all the previous times?
brain we're learning. together. chill. and let that shit in the past, no need to carry it to the future. you're getting humpbacked, mate.
instead of a whole existential crisis of self doubting and self harrasment
after compromising with the fact that I'm an imperfect human being and we all fuck up every once in a while, whether it went unnoticed or get published on all the skycrapers of the world. even celebrities have scandals. it's okay.
many people know that it's okay to make mistake, but they don't treat themselves, or even other that way.
real self love, 2021
oh chick, that isn't about that perfect skincare routine for instagrammy photos and write captions that cause people to vomit but to really helping yourself learn, assisting one instead of being too critical.
I don't relaly call that self love, but rather self acceptance now.
you should celebrate mistakes, 2021
they help you learn and they're inevitable.
they are opportunities that many people failed to see, lucky I changed my lenses to see through its ugly coating.
the way one views mistake reflects very much one's childhood - it was probably obeying for fear of being fucked the hell outta here by parents, not for respect. in addition to that, it shows if one has grown up, to what extent they'd matured.
mistakes are mistakes, and the best thing we can harness from them is learning.
19/1/2021.
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